
I want to be painting right now. But the little one's nap is almost over, no time left. I've been making thank you notes with Rylee, cut, paste, color, sign, lick, seal. Repeat. Many gifts arrived for her birthday, she was thrilled, of course. Is there really anything left to get her for Christmas? I saw a cute doll tent over at Etsy. She loves to pretend they are camping. And perhaps an apron, for all her crafting moments. Maybe this would prevent another pair of pants from being speckled in paint, glitter, glue, and playdough. Have you started your Christmas shopping? Not me. I've started "the list" which is half the battle I suppose...maybe I should shift my focus, start decorating, distract myself from the shopping.
Last night I curled up with my sketchbook and laptop. Scribbling little faces of cute models I found over at style.com. I always tell myself that, if I were better at drawing, my paintings would also be much better. But drawing is not what I'm good at, or what I like. I honestly think painting is the easy part. So I've committed myself to more sketching, more drawing. I like sweet ethereal faces, delicate features, kind of messy hair. Gemma Ward has a great face. Anyway--I'm trying to let my style evolve. I don't feel I have reached my definitive style yet. Does one ever? For a long time I painted just what I thought I could. I didn't really push myself, probably because I didn't have that much confidence in my artistic abilities. I'm working on that too. In the past several months I've found myself , wanting to paint things I love, not just things I think will make a pretty picture. I think the closer I get to finding out what I like, the more my paintings will reflect my real style. Does that make sense? There should be a book entitled " How to be an Artist", because mostly I feel like I'm just blindly stumbling along, trying to figure it all out, trying to put the pieces together. What have you done as an artist to find your style? How long did it take? (yes, sometimes I'm impatient.) I picked up some different things at the art supply this week. New pencils, oooo, wood panels, ahhhh, watercolors, whoa! Here I go, trying new things....
p.s. For those of you that have inquired, tomorrow with any luck, I'll get some things done, and will be dropping a few originals into my Etsy shop Thursday-ish. Hopefully. :)